Have I Eaten? Have I Prayed? Have I Loved?

Has every step of my life really been taken blindly?

Sometimes as I go from step to step it seems like I'm getting on and off the bucket seat of the haunted mansion ride at Disneyland. It just flows one, even, steady, emotionless speed. The path has an array of aesthetic effects but the flow stays the same. You can start and never stop. The beginning is a running start and the end (if you recognize it) is a running jump. If there weren't an employee there to tell you to get off you would literally go on for ever in the same melancholy motions. on...see...hear...feel...repeat...

Every decision in my life, I haven't had to make, things just happen. High school comes and goes, friends are placed in my path, job opportunities come, applications to college are accepted, favors are asked, love is found, love is lost, money is given, money is taken, rules come and go... I always just took it as fate. They offered me the job? I have to take it, fate gave me this opportunity. I got into that school? Well, I have to go there, the fates want me there. So-and-so likes me? I have to like him back, the fates want it.... If fate didn't want these things to happen, they wouldn't have come up. RIGHT???

It's almost like I'm a horse that takes people on the same path every day all day, and today, I am boringly taking it again. Today though, I get done with one round and feel this overwhelming sense of excitement that today will be the day for my real adventure. Only to find out it's the same dang path masked in a tropical climate or a fancy outfit.

I read today that "it's better to live your destiny imperfectly than live an imitation of someone else's life perfectly."

I think that up to this point in my life I have lived an imitated life as perfect as possible and don't have any clue what MY destiny is.When I try and imagine a change in speed or a directional change that would enhance the ride, I don't know what I'd do or even if I should do anything different. I really don't know who I am. What do I love to do? What are my passions? What would make ME happy? What makes my life, MY LIFE?

This post is part of saturday steals from my pal, camille's blog...


So, knowing my dad has been the best blessing of my life!
He has connections everywhere. At all the college job fairs they always say
NETWORK NETWORK NETWORK!
But I have my dad and he covers it all.

Some people were moving into a smaller apartment from a house and wanted to get rid of some furniture. Instead of selling it on Craig's list to make at least a little gas money, they just gave it to my dad.

It has been sitting in my garage for a while. I Painted one book shelf a while ago and have loved the addition to my life. Now, I painted a little hutch thing and a second shorter book shelf and they have completed my life.

Deal of the century:

FREE


This is the first tall book case. The second I haven't put a clear coat on yet, so it is still in the garage... it is the same in style and make, just a little shorter and more narrow.

I haven't really decorated the top of this, I just threw some stuff on top so it didn't look so barren. {Also, the green lap and shade are a sneak peak for next week...}


All three good things were a nasty light wood color and they had a little musty smell to them. Now, they are beautiful and smell delightful.
{the finishing spray I got has a distinct candy like smell?}

So, the final cost was really only approximately $27 due to the paint that I had to but to paint it with. It would have probably been cheaper to buy a gallon of black paint however, I have yet to venture to liquid paint on furniture projects. Has anyone tried that? How does it bode?

Photo Friday!!!

Here is the love of my life!!!

I hit the proverbial jack pot today!

50% 0ff of $14.99!




(The photos aren't the best, they were taken on photo both in a room with very little lighting...)

But what a deal deal deal!